by david dossett
(illinois)
At 62 years old I decided that I was going to go for a ride and either find out what's wrong with me or drive off a cliff.
My life can be summed up as the amazing disappointment. For the last 30 years I've never had an employer that wasn't totally thrilled to have me around to make lots of money for them only to eventually become very disappointed because they expected so much more. The same things were happening with other parts of my life to like the ladies,social gatherings, family gatherings. I was truly my own worst enemy.
After I made the breakthrough I started looking at some behaviors and symptoms of Dyslexics and I'm a classic
Dyslexic. I guess you really have to display strange symptoms to get treated. I think it may be the most undertreated ailment out there. I had a near death experience to find my inner self.
How I made this realization is a long story. Basically my system was under so much stress and there was so much adrenaline running through my system that I was basically running on automatic.I came to the realization that there was some reason why I wasn't running over people. I had such little mental capacity I couldn't even pick up a phone and swipe it before I forgot what I was going to do with it.
After I after I discovered the inner presence that was all I needed and there is there was no turning back now..
My family and friends are very skeptical. Its been 2 weeks now. I don't think that delusions last that long. They will come around eventually.
I feel like I've been able to walk out of a really stinky room into another nice one. I don't have to worry about past emotional garbage now. Oh my that sounds almost psychopathic doesn't it.Lol
Another thing, My bumps and lumps are getting smaller and going away. I'm self healing.I smoked my first cool all the way down and it tasted great. Cigarettes don't kill you, you're brain does.
It really is nice to feel what normal humans feel. it took 62 years to do it but I'm not bitter. I'm healthy now and there's still lots to do.